Stories from an ordinary life

I need a magic 8 ball

Most of you already know that my position at News 14 has been eliminated, but I thought I'd write a little update here. The story is, the head honchos only want two people running the Web site and we have three people. That means one of us has to go. To be fair they are making us all reapply and reinterview. Yippee. The way I figure, and most others assume the same, the guys will be rehired because they've been at the station much longer than me. I got the short straw. Kyle thinks he has an equal chance of being the cut one because he told our boss a few weeks ago that he was looking at other jobs. I don't know if that info got passed on to the other peeps though so, being one of the first on the Web team, I think his job is safe.

The boss says they will find me another position and won't leave me hanging without a job. Not that I'm ungrateful, but I'm doing what I really enjoy and I'm happy. I don't want another position in television. So I'm keeping my options open, but it feels like my world has been turned upside down. I'm reapplying for my own job, looking at jobs in other cities and applying to grad school all at the same time. I freaked out for a few minutes there, but I'm taking it all in stride now. Just have to get my boss to write a recommendation and put the finishing touches on my grad school letter. I can never tell whether or not I've actually written something good. I'm a terrible judge of my own writing, so I'm hoping Kyle and my parents will tell me if the second attempt is better than my first.

Sometimes I really wish I had a crystal ball. I like some surprises and I'm sure I'd be a mess if I knew bad things that would happen in the future -- but wouldn't life be so much easier if we knew everything would turn out the way we want? As long as I get to keep my job OR I get into grad school, everything will be fine. But what if I get neither?

There are several other uncertanties in my future (love, family, housing, etc.), but some of those have been looking up recently. I'm finally content to wait and see what happens. All I've got to do is be confident and don't stress, and some situations will just shake themselves out. I come from a long line of matriarchs that said "everything happens just as it's supposed to." Not that you can argue with that; you can't exactly prove God wrong. I'll keep you all posted.

posted by This one time . . . @ 12:05 AM