Stories from an ordinary life

Just thinkin

I have officially decided I want to be a pirate for Halloween. After watching Pirates of the Caribbean again (the first sequel comes out in July!), the temptation is just too strong to dress up as one so I can do terrible things and just say, "Pirate," as my excuse. I should make a trip out to Spencer's so I can get a flask to carry too. I'm ordering the sword with the costume online. I figure if I'm going to pay an arm and a leg for shipping I should get as much as I can from the shop. When I finally get a day off on Tues. I'm going to have to go through my make-up and jewelry to see what look I can come up with; it's going to suck though cause I'm going to have to change and get ready for the party at work because of course it's on a Sat. Good thing I work at a TV station where we have neat little dressing rooms.

Alright, I just have to mention this because it's so damn cute. Now that the weather is getting colder the cats are starting to snuggle up to get warm. Last night I woke up and it looked like they were spooning; Champ had fallen asleep with his arm around Jazzie. Most likely he was giving her a bath and fell asleep. Now Jazzie has climbed up on top of him in the tiny little bed and fallen asleep. She's snoring away, completely comfortable, and Champ is falling out of the bed, resting his head on one paw and a notepad and looking like all guys do when a girl falls asleep on them and they are left very uncomfortable but too sweet to move. I really wish my camera was handy. In fact I think it's out in my car, and if I moved from this chair the cats would get up and follow me to the door and the cuteness would be over. So oh well.

Onto the weekend wrap-up! Aside from work, work and more work, I headed out to a haunted woods thing with Tracey, Tré, Lacey, her boyfriend and another couple. Normally I let reason rule and I think to myself, "They're just regular people all dressed up." But last night I let myself get into it and have a good time. Apparently I have a serious fight-or-flight reflex cause I kept trying to run away! I couldn't help myself; I would have dragged Tracey along if she would have let me. Anyhow, it was fun and I actually made it home by 3 a.m., a reasonable hour for a weekend night.

I'm getting hyped up about having a weekend off very soon. I think I really needed a set break before I exploded. Sometimes I feel like I can't make any friends here because I'm unavailable during the day on weekends. I'm fighting an uphill battle to have a normal early 20s life; until my schedule changes I'll be at a disadvantage when it comes to making connections, especially when it comes to guys. Being around couples last night kinda reminded me that although I'm ok with being single for now, sometimes I get scared I'm going to be single forever. I just need to know there's a freaking light at the end of the tunnel. I can't believe I'm about to turn 24. Maybe it's because I'm a good six months older than most of my friends or maybe it's because I love kids so much, but I think I feel the pressure to get it together more than most of my friends. I know it won't be long before my biological clock will start ticking so loud that it'll keep me awake at night. It's not like I want a baby next year or something, but I don't want to lose my best child-bearing years and have to rush and go through tests and drama just to have the family I always wanted when I'm in my 30s and 40s. And I don't want to end up like Jennifer Garner and Katie Holmes who are going to be popping out kids before their first year of marriage is up. I want to be able to travel and have a good time with my husband. The cats are enough babies for the first few years! Ok, I'm sure I'm boring any guys who are tuning in and I need to get to bed since I have to work again, so I'm outta here.

posted by This one time . . . @ 11:27 PM