The most anticipated birth since Christ!
Angelina Jolie finally gave birth to the child the world's been waiting for, and thank God she gave it a relatively normal name!!!! Welcome baby Shiloh! That's a name I'd actually consider for one of my own children, unlike Suri, Moses, or Bluebell. You pop culture junkies know what I'm talking about. Anyhow, congrats to the world's most beautiful family. The child isn't even a few hours old and I'm already jealous that she won the genetic jackpot.
Ruminations
Carl and I were the world's most unproductive people at work today. I'd say about a third of the day was spent bopping around a tropical-colored beachball in the newsroom. He's leaving on Tues. for a job where he'll make a few grand more, and I'm leaving Thurs. to spend some quality time on my couch while I wait to hear from grad school or potential employers. If I'm lucky WSOC will offer me a job after my writing test/interview early Tues. Morning. Then I can take
two weeks off to get tan, get a haircut and maybe do something fun, like see the Muppets at the Smithsonian. Seeing Kermit in person is almost better than seeing all the celebs that are in town for the "Cars" premiere. He's been around a lot longer than most of them -- except maybe Paul Newman. It's been a pretty eventful week in Charlotte -- too bad I don't have a job anymore so I can't go out and have any fun! I have to stay in so I won't spend any money/gas. Gin Blossoms are playing uptown tonight and I would love to go, but that would require driving and probably spending money on food and drinks. No can do. In fact, there are a lot of concerts I would love to see this summer, especially Rob Thomas again, but I can't make plans to see anything because I don't know what state I'll be in or if I'll have the day off.
Sometimes I feel like my time will never come. Like I'll never have job security or the spare cash to do the things that normal people do, like go on vacation. I'll never make it to Italy or Greece or even Las Vegas. I'll be stuck spending any days I get off at home wishing I could be anywhere else in the world. I've tried really hard to look on the bright side the last few weeks, but going through unemployment twice in two years can really bring you down. I've had to move annually for the last six years and I want to be able to call some place home for a change. Everyone keeps telling me it will all work out for me in the end, but I'm not sure if this layoff is the light at the end of the tunnel or an oncoming train. Maybe I need to listen to Semisonic's
"This Will Be My Year" a few dozen more times.
On the prowl
I've been job hunting for the last two days like a hungry lioness. I've pretty much tapped all my resources though and now I'm starving and a little scared. Part of the problem is that I know what I want to do now and I don't want to compromise and end up stuck in a job I hate. So very few jobs are really jumping out at me. On the positive side, according to
the Department of Labor, I'm in good shape because I have Web experience. Hopefully finding another job won't be too difficult, and if I get into American's grad school I'll really jump ahead in my career.
For now all I can really do is keep applying and prepare to leave Charlotte if I have to. My mind is in a million places at once though and I won't
be able to concentrate for my final two weeks of work. Fortunately my colleagues understand. Just another reason I hate to leave. I absolutely love the people I work with. They are understanding, yet fun and cool, and they always look out for me. It's like having a half-dozen or so big brothers. Just a few weeks ago I felt safe and happy, now it's all topsy-turvy.
I came home and I couldn't stop running around trying to find stuff I could do because I had already hit all the job sites and I was burnt out on looking at the computer screen, yet I felt I had to be productive. So I organized my desk and bathroom cabinets. I cleared papers from the kitchen counter I use for important stuff and put old apartment guides and phone books in the recycling bin. I threw out old makeup and played with the cats. Now I don't know what to do with myself! I'm about to start organizing my books to figure out which ones I haven't read now that I'm about to have too much time on my hands. That task should probably wait though until I have boxes to start packing the old ones into. Not like I'll be able to concentrate on any story right now though! As you all can tell I'm a complete mess right now. But I think I'm holding up much better than the last time I was unemployed. It's an image you don't even want to think about!
